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A fly... Sitting in the back of your throat, and I hear every whisper.
You are the voice of the voiceless... But what is it that you really have to say.

We are the placebo children. Those creating a false existence, our smiles just part of the drug we are believed to cause happiness. Synthetic voices laughing and we are numb. We’re the replicas of reality, taken, giving false hope to the dying. The belief that we are real makes them live as we lie to their minds.

Do you even understand?

It’s that kind of living, when you don’t feel real. Where every smile you give is false, and every laugh so artificial. You do it in the hope that others won’t know that you’re not really alive, and they’ll keep living with you even though really they’re living for you. They don’t know that every part of you has died and as you feel your insides rotting away terrified your skin is going to tear and everyone will see all the filth you keep inside.
A placebo child is fake. He/She knows what they are, aware of how they numb the people’s minds giving them the pretence that everything is alright.

It’s not alright.

A placebo child aches. Everyone wanting something from it and it knows that it has nothing to give. Not to anyone.
Perhaps there’ll be a momentary high from the sick sugar defamation, but the placebo child knows they’re still going to die.

We’re all going to die.
©2005-2009 ~bleedingabcess
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Author's Comments

i didnt quite no where to put it.. it was jsut my thoughts.. on being a placebo child. i guess its not really philosophical.. but then.. hmm. sorry if you dont liek it. just my ramblings on paper.

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:iconkleptomermaid:
love you babe... i hope everything works out ok...
:glomp: :heart :glomp: :heart:

love always, ursula xoxo

good prose to... well done :clap:

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if homosexuality is a disease, then lets all call in "queer" to work... :dance:
:iconbleedingabcess:
fanx sweetheart. everythings okay.. just feel like i have to be so fake sometimes

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kinda funny how im not listening anyway..
:iconkleptomermaid:
hmm... i think i understand how you feell.. probly not.. but i can imagine

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if homosexuality is a disease, then lets all call in "queer" to work... :dance:
:iconbleedingabcess:
why prollynot? i htink everyone has similar feelings at some point. wether it be for the same reason or not

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kinda funny how im not listening anyway..
:iconkleptomermaid:
i dunno.... i just dont think i can fully understand what your going through... i feel like im fake sometimes... but yeah.. i dunno... no one can really understand what someone else is feeling.... even if they are feeling the same thing...

we are all alone...

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if homosexuality is a disease, then lets all call in "queer" to work... :dance:
:iconamethyst-rain:
*is in awe* I really really really really really really like this.

like.. wow...

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Memento mori. Recuerde que usted debe morir. Rappeler doit vous mourir. Ich werde mich erinnern, an der Sie sterben mussen. Ricordarla deve morire. Inclusief ga zich herinneren dat u moet sterven. Lembre-se de você deve morrer. Remember you must die
:iconsilver-elph:
I don't know what to say to this, but I really like it. So I'm faving it.

I understand fakeness and being fake for the sake of other people.

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~Elphia~
:iconbleedingabcess:
thats true. but everyone has a right to be sad.. wether its over a broken nail or death..

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kinda funny how im not listening anyway..
:iconbleedingabcess:
thanks sweetheart. its just. my head.. on paper

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kinda funny how im not listening anyway..

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